Saturday, December 10, 2011

I've lost count how many times did i shed tears for the past 3 months here...

Definitely more than the past 4 years accumulated.

Monday, November 7, 2011

What is an Actuary

So much work to do but i just can't get my ass up to do my work!!! I'd rather do anything, anything except my work. So i'm drifting away from my assessment again and ended up here.
Assessment: 0
Blog Post: +1 

I was youtube-ing a while ago and came across this. Listened to it many many times before but still feel good to listen to it again. =)


The weather is getting really cold, it had been raining everyday. This means i get super hungry super fast, which also means i'll be growing side ways! haih. I really miss the sun. 12 in the morning and i'm not sure whether i should eat now. argh.

And.......... Let me end this short post with my vain pic!! Cut my own fringe!! *proud* lolol
didn't intend to cut it this short initially. but the 1st time was a disaster so i have to cut it twice T_T


Saturday, November 5, 2011

Life in Uk

After reading back my old entries, i decided i should really document my life here in the uk. It brings back lotsa memories while reading old entries. So for those who do not know, I'm doing my MSc in Applied Actuarial Science in University of Kent, Canterbury, Kent, United Kingdom.

In front of Canterbury Cathedral, Kent (one of the most famous cathedral i suppose, lots of tourists)

Its been almost 2 months already. Things are going pretty smoothly except that sometimes i really miss people back home. Love ones, friends and also Malaysian food!!! Trying to learn how to cook things i love to eat cause there're only 3 pathetic chinese restaurants in this little place. And they're not really good. And guess what? Only 1, SATU, ONE, YAT, Japanese Restaurant, they call it. AND they don't serve sushi. KILL ME PLEASE.

this was during 1st 2 weeks when the sun is still bright and the weather is still super nice >.<
taken at one of the fields in the university. 

Talk about the weather, it's autumn now. It was quite ok the first week. Warm, around 20over degree Celsius and for the pass week, weather changed so much its getting so cold i get runny nose after walking only 10mins outdoor. AND the sky is super dark like its midnight already when it's just 5pm. Winter is coming really soon.. T__T

In my class, there're at least more than 50% chinese, from China, Hong Kong, Taiwan or even Malaysia. Not. A. Single. Blonde. !!! Schedule is quite heavy compared to other courses. Like my flatmates, they only have 13 hours a week? We have 20 hours per week!! >.< And oh, let me introduce my flatmates!

From Left: Chan (malaysia), ShiYu (China), Lekhi (New Delhi), Minal (England), Maryam (Bahrain) and ME! =)

That's it for today, more to come! 
Stay tuned! <3

Tuesday, July 12, 2011


is the hashtag in twitter that has pushed me to write this entry. I've too much to express, my feelings, my emotion, so deeply touched I guess no words can fully describe how I feel.

When Bersih 2.0 just launched, I don't get the true message, I don't know what is it for. Until when 709 is drawing nearer and nearer, and I read more news on Bersih 2.0, that is when I started to realize the real purpose. It's for a clean and fair election, it's for a good cause, it's something that no sound mind would say NO. But, why is the government saying that it's illegal ? We just want to have a PEACEFUL rally to bring the message, we're not gonna harm anyone. Why are we not allowed to do so ? Where's our freedom of speech? WHY ISA? So, is the government guilty ? therefore the ban ?

A week before 709, I was having lunch at a coffee shop in setapak, it was a Sunday afternoon. There was this auntie who came to my table and handed me a leaflet.

leaflet she handed to me 

She told me to "wear yellow", only 2 words, but looking at her I was already touched, in my heart I was longing to talk to her, to know more. But I did not say anything and she had already walked to other tables, distributing the leaflet. Deep down, I was afraid that the police might arrest her because she's wearing yellow and another side of me admired her for being so brave.

credits to that person who took this wonderful picture 

My sense proved me right when I first saw this picture in facebook after 709. My heart cringed. my eyes teared looking at this picture. She ought to have a page for herself. She ought to earn respect of ALL Malaysians. Though old, she's braver than most of us who're younger, who have more strength. And they're many more who should earn our respect. I'm ashamed.

So for the whole week, I was in dilemma, thinking whether to join the rally. Till the day before, I called my parents and told them about the rally, all they said is "you eat full too free ah? crazy ah?". Not because they don't support Bersih 2.0. All because they're not sure what's really happening. They only have newspaper and TV, which are under the influence of government. I bet not only them, many who are not active on social media still do not know what's happening.

AND All I did was to change into yellow and took this picture to use it as my profile picture to show my support so much of a bimbo

On 709, I'd been on the internet all the while, following live updates and the fire in my heart's burning HOT. The more I saw the more I felt like joining, but it was too late. They already dispersed. I hated myself for not being brave enough. I called my parents and told them how I regret not joining the rally. I was really SO sad. By reading the updates, I can already feel how united people are, touched by how all races helped each other. 1Malaysia? I tell you, 1Malaysia is another bullshit from HIM. Before 1Malaysia, we don't even feel so much of a racial problem, you come out with 1Malaysia and ask us to be united. We're ALREADY united in the 1st place, YOU and YOUR allies created racial issues. Isn't it clear? People in the rally didn't shout 1Malaysia but? Hidup Rakyat! because we don't need to, we, The Rakyats are one!

After #bersihstories, I know newspaper that's suppose to report news are all bullshit. Imagine those who only read newspaper and watch tv, they will be duped into believing that government is all good and the rally is for a bad cause. I explained to my parents and told them some #bersihstories, and I know they would have supported me.

#bersihstories, most powerful hashtag ever, because, before this, I've always thought of migrating away, but NOW, I see HOPE, we need to stay for a CHANGE. READ #bersihstories.


Where is the love? still sad-ing over the footage T___________T

Saturday, July 9, 2011

talk bout

not gonna cut my hair. today I just chopped 3-4 inches of my hair T___________T

it's getting too long and hard to manage. and since i'm going to UK and I guess I won't be getting a hair cut anytime soon.. so i decided to cut it


 after T_T
might not be a big difference for you but it is for me T___T

bye! =P

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Long Hair Long Nails

Oh My!!!!!!!!!! It's been a month?!?!?! that was fast. life's been really busy, so busy i couldn't not abandon my blog for a while =( anyway, i'm back! still busy but maybe slightly less. =D

 please say hi! lol

My hair been getting really really long it's getting really really hard to manage. I used to wash and blow my hair every. single. day. NOT. anymore. because, washing needs at least 15 minutes, blowing another at least 20 minutes for only 85% dry.

 reaching my waist!!!! >.<

 it's getting too troublesome to wash and blow everyday. SO i am not washing it everyday anymore!!! and not blowing it EITHER!!!! i'll let it drip on a towel, and air dry. AND i takes AN HOUR and only gets like 90% dry. -_____-

 and my super long nails!!!! KENOT TAHAN already!!! it hurts like a bitch whenever i hit it against something.
 super long ok.
kenot tahan so just CUT IT!
wish i have the courage to do it to my hair too. but NO!! been keeping it for 2.5 years already >.<

Friday, June 3, 2011

Club for obedient wives

Saw this interesting news in FreeMalaysiaToday today and I find it totally speechless amusing.

“To entertain their husbands is compulsory. If she doesn’t do this, the husband will look for another woman… and the house will break down.”
Seriously, I didn't know that wives are supposed to entertain their husbands. Where's gender equality?

To what extent does the wife have to be obedient? to be obedient when there isn't any respect at all? and how can being obedient brings fewer problems to the society?

Friday, May 27, 2011

for beauty's sake

Okay, so this random thought has been haunting me for few days already. Or maybe every now and then. So, have you ever thought of things a girl would do for beauty's sake? or the extent of pain/ inconvenience/ whatsoever that's relevant?

Firstly, the pain to endure when undergoing plastic surgery or during recovery. I've always imagine how much pain would a person have to go through and the thought of it already chickened me out. I really admire or maybe envy those girls who have the guts, not that I want a surgery yet, but I really cannot imagine having to alter any parts of my body PERMANENTLY. Another reason was because I always think that whatever I have, it's God gift so I should treasure them.

Not ONLY that, sometimes, girls who went for surgery are already quite pretty. Maybe beauty is an addiction too. They feel they're not pretty enough? want to be perfect? seriously, I don't know. Someone please tell me!! Say, what if you don't like the outcome? what if it fails? and your face become so fragile you have to be careful AT ALL TIMES. How do you deal with it? Is beauty really that important for you to sacrifice so much? THAT IMPORTANT??!?!?

Another thing I suppose, would be make up. The longest time I had fake lashes on was for almost a day, like late morning till night, and towards the night, ALL I wanted to do was to rush home and clean everything off my face. My skin need to breathe. It's suffocating!! Maybe it was just me who doesn't have the determination. Some girls can have fake lashes on every. single. day. I am again another jealous bitch who cannot understand how someone can be putting on fake lashes so diligently every. single. day.

Or maybe make up really do wonders, and you become addicted to your make up-ed look you cannot go out without it? At this point, I am starting to think that I am really some lazy sour girl who is not as hardworking, and writing this now because I am just jealous of petty and disciplined hardworking girls. LOL

AND I ALSO CANNOT TAHAN HOW SOME GIRLS CAN BE SO SLIM!!! OMG! because I cannot say NO to nice foods. guess that's the only reason why. =( I've heard of someone who hasn't eat rice for years just because she wants to keep "fit". NO rice? Chinese not eating rice? like Westerners not having potatoes? How? And I conclude that I am really not a determine person. That's all. bye.

And if you've read from the beginning until now, thanks for listening to a random rambling? of a confused, sour, not hardworking, not so determined girl. tenkiuwaylimuch.

P/S: wah. I didn't know I can talk so much cock. Just yesterday I was finding it super hard to write a 1000 words essay. O_O

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Of durians and mahjong

Life's been busy, probably won't be updating as often these few weeks.
But here're some random stuff  happening in my life which includes,
DURIANS and MAHJONG! both also my ultimate love!

One of the gathering with church friends 

We all went to Downtown for a drink

till  late in the night because we have so much to share >.<

 black forest cake baked by a church friend

 and Durians!!! Musang King and Durian Super

tastes SUPERBLY GOOD. kid you not. bet you've never heard bout it before. 
it my 1st time trying too and I'm lovin' it!


 trying our luck on the last "insert whatever you call"

 and found a small one =(

 I shall eat less durian from now on
because "someone" said my face's getting rounder. 
I know... seriously.. =(

 then it's mahjong time!

 life's too good when you can play mahjong after durians

 "good luck"
while the guys were playing i have nothing better to do but to take "artsy fartsy" pics LOLLL


Thursday, May 19, 2011

La Yosh Revisit and Moo Cow!

So the froyo gang was craving for froyo one day and decided that we should have lunch  together before we go for our fav froyo!

and then... we went to La Yosh again. 
(have been wanting to try out their squid ink pasta since the 1st visit
so when JJ suggested that we go La Yosh I straight away say ok! haha

 love their designs, it wasn't the first time but I still love ( hence, more pictures ) how they design this cozy little place 

 spotted this pair of colorful cute! shoes and sneakily snapped a pic! LOL

 key given to us

 upon checking-in ? 

 notice how this little lamb lamp makes the whole ambiance so nice and cozy ?

 and the decorations too!

 well, I ordered the set meal again. comes with salad soup and coffee/tea.

JJ ordered student set which comes with coffee/tea

and his donburi (RM10)

 my squid ink pasta!!!! =D (RM26.50 per set) 
it wasn't superb (a bit like fried mee) but now when I'm typing this, I feel like eating it again. so I think it's actually quite good. lol

 finished!!  *makes me so hungry already =( *

and there! my inked lips! before I wiped and after

Muzzie's "western punya nasi pataya". (RM26.50 per set)
 Just like what I ordered the 1st time but mine was cream

HAHAHA! all because I couldn't remember the price the 1st time!!!!

After lunch we proceeded to Moo Cow!!!! 

 ohai! we're here again

april's menu

as usual, me and JJ opted for the original flavour and muzzie tried the gula melaka one

 one more stamp till I got the T'shirt! 
*Can I have discount everytime I visit MooCow wearing the Tshirt?* >.<

yay!!!!! happy froyo gang @ Moo Cow. i <3 this pic.